Date: Thursday, May 3, 2012
Posted at: 10:33 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Date: Monday, April 23, 2012
Posted at: 3:50 AM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Another week passed, currently working on intern final report, other projects, lastly some of my photos i found in my com. Over the week, read up on photography; 52photographic projects, Kevin Meredith and Design Principles, Jeremy Webb. "52 photographic projects" gives me the feel and that impulse to get out and take shots. In the book, i found projects which i once had in mind and its just amazing to see and know that there are people out there thinking the exact same thing and had the exact same inspiration i once had. i felt so happy reading that book. It is a book which i might just spend my life trying to accomplish. The second book "Design Principle", this book taught me new perspectives, new methods of expression. The author displayed how elements and principles of design changes how a photo expresses the photographer's point of view. its is a like a guide for me to experience something intense something vivid. But~ these 2 have to be fucking returned to library soon =.= tmd...lolol. For any photographers out there, check out these 2 books, own them if u can afford im sure u won't regret it. im gona save up to get my own copy xD Ha...speaking of afford...ytd one of my cousin's fren, made a offer to sell off his canon 60D and 50mm lenses @ $1100..those who know me will understand..dafuk can i afford it now...no chance, gave it a pass..sibei sian..such a good offer..zz. Its always like this..well i just have to get use to it, or maybe i had. During my intern, i was lucky to have my boss teach me abt developing films. He himself was a black and white photographer. spending my last day of intern, with him sharing to me abt the trips he made and the photos he took. such a lucky man eh? hahas he owns 10 over cameras, film and digitals. Spending part of his life traveling taking photos and now having a happy family with a high paying job. damn i wanna be like him lol. He also introduced to me the Russian's film cameras. Beauties with precision just like Leicas. I hope 1 day i can do that. Travel and take photos. Photo above is from " Geof Kern 's A wonderfully odd world " series.I admires his composition, that sophistication it had.
Peace out-
Date: Friday, March 30, 2012
Posted at: 11:15 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Its been a while, i guess blogger is a better place cas tumblr is somewhat too connected.I prefer serenity which blogger provides, so i guess tumblr just gona be some minor post everynow and then. These days, all that i can think abt is how to earn enough money so that i can take up more load off my parents. to help support my family. In a way, i cnt take up bank load, nor i or my family have enough for my Uni. Signing on seem to be a good option, but thinking abt the commitment i have to put up with, i just couldn't take up that chance till its last resort. Lets just hope in 3 years time, everything turns out fine, i get a job with stable income. if best, support my younger bros for uni. Well, in this world, paper do great difference. and thats one miserable fact which i nvr want to believe, till i see my parents getting old working like a bull to support us. Ard 2 years back, my only goal and desire was to earn my camera, roam the world, learn, and to show the world a diff perspective. It shall be a dream, and pretty much always be. As we all know dreams and reality are 2 different things.Dreams can always be a "want" while survive will always be a "need" How many of u out there have the courage to pursuit ur dreams, leaving behind everything just like the birds in skies? I once had. but i just..have to take a step back, as courage is nvr enough whn it comes to reality. The current world where looks brands are how most decide what u are. Everyday, we can see so many spending their whole life trying to achieve luxurious life,drive cars, eat the best, live the best. So many....all blindly spend all of their time working and saving and~~ thn spend all money on those stuff, to achieve wealthy status. Stuff which when ur dead, u cnt nvr bring along. All they bring along may just be the memories of them, working and saving through all pains to get all these as many are not born with a silver spoon. I hoped some of u out there reach dreams as i believe that will be one of the best adventure and moments that many could not achieve. Picture above titled "Little Dreams on the Wings " by J.M. Barclay .
-Peace out-
Date: Sunday, December 11, 2011
Posted at: 12:09 AM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Guys,I moved.
http://youneverbeenhere.tumblr.com/
Date: Saturday, July 16, 2011
Posted at: 11:43 AM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
In the end, it still u guys that help me though..;)
Thanks guys..words just too hard to express how grateful i am
Thank you all for still have trust in me
Yesterday was the day, i feel hope, feel joy even though it was such a thing
Date: Sunday, July 10, 2011
Posted at: 8:48 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
i Need these keys real bad.
Date: Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Posted at: 9:58 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Was sending files through bluetooth frm my old phone. "I'm attached to her!" appeared. hahs..some may get it some may not. Hmm..missed those moments, but it aint coming back though. Stay Happy gal.. =)
Date: Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Posted at: 1:20 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Once upon a time,i met u
someone sweet and caring.
lively as always..
back thn i saw the most beautiful smile
dumb and stupid i may be,problems lots in just a month
We got together way too fast,
not understand each of us
in the end 3weeks was all we lasted. =(
I got my chance to know u more.
Falling for u, like a bottomless pithole
All my heart, hope that u will be my gal
there came another. courting u.
He was chosen over me, all i can do was to wait.
staying by ur side, believing one day u will be mine.
Holding on to the hopes, i kept trying
trying to get ur heart..
things happened, we became ears for each other problems.
We drifted apart.
hoping that u feel something missing as days passed.
u didn't, i was upset.
Till u got sick.injured. i got worried. i gave in.
i wanted u to happy, healthy and return to the lively u.
there were once,u may tink wat i did, came with a motive of havin something in return.
all the while till thn, the motive were to be with u.
but till certian point, ur actions thought me.
all became straight frm my heart.
once,i had u..for a while..for a moment..
i fell, i tried and..i failed miserably..
i learn to love, to care, to be there.
day by day went, i thought i had let go of u..
now that u asked me to let go..i realise im lost..totally.
i read ur msg over n over again.
i dun understand, as came back to the question i once asked u..
no matter wat, be happy gal.
i want to see u xin fu, healthy.
u once asked me wat was it that make me fell for u
i told feelings, the other half was
u were the only one, tat could cheer me up even whn im sad deep inside.
just by keeping company, ur beautiful smile.
u just make me feel happy somehow.
*takes a deep breath* Love u, serene hong xD
bye...
Date: Sunday, June 19, 2011
Posted at: 1:03 AM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
i wonder alone with a missing heart..
there came back the broken one..
maybe i just been fooling myself all this while..
The Empty Me.
Date: Saturday, June 18, 2011
Posted at: 2:55 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
For a moment, i thought the feeling came..
now im all confused again
Date: Sunday, June 5, 2011
Posted at: 11:31 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Date: Sunday, May 22, 2011
Posted at: 5:04 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
I dunno if u were happy having me ard,but i was happy have u been there for me.
Its just hard to let go of someone i want to hang on to for so long...
even though i have worn out holding on to her..
what was it that others can do, but i cnt do for u..
deep inside my heart's still with u..
i really duno wats going on in my mind..
but take care gal='(
Been missing ur company lately.
i'm still here..if u nid me..
Date: Monday, May 9, 2011
Posted at: 1:45 AM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
thanks you for ur care n corcern for someone who get into so much of trouble ever since primary sch.thanks for ur tolerance for someone who is hot temper, impulsive and nvr put in best effort for studies=/. im really happy to noe tat u really like the drama set, promise u one day i will take photos u will be proud of. Happy Mother Day mum, love you.
peace out.
Date: Saturday, April 30, 2011
Posted at: 7:07 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
one of the multi frames shot that i took..didnt turn out tat well anw, recently getting kinda
weird feeling, confused..wondering alone.
and fuck!! blackbird fly still ICU ,life without a camera's company is freaking weird and boring.
Date: Sunday, April 3, 2011
Posted at: 12:43 AM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Date: Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Posted at: 4:47 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Date: Monday, March 21, 2011
Posted at: 4:36 AM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Lone Tree by maurese.
Few hours before i can go to slp=D...recently its been like tis,even since my parents once again repeat their drama..mm..somewhere aft i injured my toe ligament. Nowdays its 5am-3/4pm slp time and 4pm-4am wake time..yea i noe..shld hav been the other way round. However,thats one the ways for me to avoid my family since i can hardly move abt to go out. And damn...money all goes to sensei for treatment..T.T haaiahhsss.....now it became real hard to catch up my fren n bros as well..mostly whn im awake,they would hav gone way far in lala land...haiz.Sometimes,kinda sadded whn facebook posts i was expecting a reply..didnt get through=/ , maybe they are busy ba. hopefully on tues appmt sensei will bandage again...its fucking disgusting.hmm..its 5am..wat beats u hearing ur dad cough such tat he cnt slp...haiz...wat to do wat to do.I'm out~
Date: Friday, March 18, 2011
Posted at: 8:26 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Date: Monday, February 21, 2011
Posted at: 8:20 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
爸妈离婚吧，放手一博。
Date: Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Posted at: 8:49 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
recently,been on a routine kinda lifestyle.
Posted at: 10:33 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
White Trees by Chaotic.Atmospheres
Finally the new washing machine came and my mum don't have to bear washing clothes with her swollen hands. Few days back, i notice her fingers turning all swell red. i asked, she told me might be due to sudden contact with those strong chemicals these few days.Just when i feel so relieved that one problem solved...my dad started another..indirectly..we both argue over some shit again.its always about the fucking money. I thought u both dun wan to or rather cnt afford to..so i paid wat..we all struggled.its a fact.everyone trying so hard to keep the family "operating" that we became so spaced out. The frustration we all had buried in us just keep the cycle going.
The fact that we are poor, 没钱了, then what is there to quarrel about?
Date: Monday, April 23, 2012
Posted at: 3:50 AM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Another week passed, currently working on intern final report, other projects, lastly some of my photos i found in my com. Over the week, read up on photography; 52photographic projects, Kevin Meredith and Design Principles, Jeremy Webb. "52 photographic projects" gives me the feel and that impulse to get out and take shots. In the book, i found projects which i once had in mind and its just amazing to see and know that there are people out there thinking the exact same thing and had the exact same inspiration i once had. i felt so happy reading that book. It is a book which i might just spend my life trying to accomplish. The second book "Design Principle", this book taught me new perspectives, new methods of expression. The author displayed how elements and principles of design changes how a photo expresses the photographer's point of view. its is a like a guide for me to experience something intense something vivid. But~ these 2 have to be fucking returned to library soon =.= tmd...lolol. For any photographers out there, check out these 2 books, own them if u can afford im sure u won't regret it. im gona save up to get my own copy xD Ha...speaking of afford...ytd one of my cousin's fren, made a offer to sell off his canon 60D and 50mm lenses @ $1100..those who know me will understand..dafuk can i afford it now...no chance, gave it a pass..sibei sian..such a good offer..zz. Its always like this..well i just have to get use to it, or maybe i had. During my intern, i was lucky to have my boss teach me abt developing films. He himself was a black and white photographer. spending my last day of intern, with him sharing to me abt the trips he made and the photos he took. such a lucky man eh? hahas he owns 10 over cameras, film and digitals. Spending part of his life traveling taking photos and now having a happy family with a high paying job. damn i wanna be like him lol. He also introduced to me the Russian's film cameras. Beauties with precision just like Leicas. I hope 1 day i can do that. Travel and take photos. Photo above is from " Geof Kern 's A wonderfully odd world " series.I admires his composition, that sophistication it had.
Photos.Can tell like any story book.
Peace out-
Date: Friday, March 30, 2012
Posted at: 11:15 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Its been a while, i guess blogger is a better place cas tumblr is somewhat too connected.I prefer serenity which blogger provides, so i guess tumblr just gona be some minor post everynow and then. These days, all that i can think abt is how to earn enough money so that i can take up more load off my parents. to help support my family. In a way, i cnt take up bank load, nor i or my family have enough for my Uni. Signing on seem to be a good option, but thinking abt the commitment i have to put up with, i just couldn't take up that chance till its last resort. Lets just hope in 3 years time, everything turns out fine, i get a job with stable income. if best, support my younger bros for uni. Well, in this world, paper do great difference. and thats one miserable fact which i nvr want to believe, till i see my parents getting old working like a bull to support us. Ard 2 years back, my only goal and desire was to earn my camera, roam the world, learn, and to show the world a diff perspective. It shall be a dream, and pretty much always be. As we all know dreams and reality are 2 different things.Dreams can always be a "want" while survive will always be a "need" How many of u out there have the courage to pursuit ur dreams, leaving behind everything just like the birds in skies? I once had. but i just..have to take a step back, as courage is nvr enough whn it comes to reality. The current world where looks brands are how most decide what u are. Everyday, we can see so many spending their whole life trying to achieve luxurious life,drive cars, eat the best, live the best. So many....all blindly spend all of their time working and saving and~~ thn spend all money on those stuff, to achieve wealthy status. Stuff which when ur dead, u cnt nvr bring along. All they bring along may just be the memories of them, working and saving through all pains to get all these as many are not born with a silver spoon. I hoped some of u out there reach dreams as i believe that will be one of the best adventure and moments that many could not achieve. Picture above titled "Little Dreams on the Wings " by J.M. Barclay .-Peace out-
Date: Sunday, December 11, 2011
Posted at: 12:09 AM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Guys,I moved.
http://youneverbeenhere.tumblr.com/
Date: Saturday, July 16, 2011
Posted at: 11:43 AM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
In the end, it still u guys that help me though..;)
Thanks guys..words just too hard to express how grateful i am
Thank you all for still have trust in me
Yesterday was the day, i feel hope, feel joy even though it was such a thing
Brothers and family for life.
Date: Sunday, July 10, 2011
Posted at: 8:48 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
i Need these keys real bad.
Date: Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Posted at: 9:58 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Was sending files through bluetooth frm my old phone. "I'm attached to her!" appeared. hahs..some may get it some may not. Hmm..missed those moments, but it aint coming back though. Stay Happy gal.. =)Date: Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Posted at: 1:20 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Once upon a time,i met u
someone sweet and caring.
lively as always..
back thn i saw the most beautiful smile
dumb and stupid i may be,problems lots in just a month
We got together way too fast,
not understand each of us
in the end 3weeks was all we lasted. =(
I got my chance to know u more.
Falling for u, like a bottomless pithole
All my heart, hope that u will be my gal
there came another. courting u.
He was chosen over me, all i can do was to wait.
staying by ur side, believing one day u will be mine.
Holding on to the hopes, i kept trying
trying to get ur heart..
things happened, we became ears for each other problems.
We drifted apart.
hoping that u feel something missing as days passed.
u didn't, i was upset.
Till u got sick.injured. i got worried. i gave in.
i wanted u to happy, healthy and return to the lively u.
there were once,u may tink wat i did, came with a motive of havin something in return.
all the while till thn, the motive were to be with u.
but till certian point, ur actions thought me.
all became straight frm my heart.
once,i had u..for a while..for a moment..
i fell, i tried and..i failed miserably..
i learn to love, to care, to be there.
day by day went, i thought i had let go of u..
now that u asked me to let go..i realise im lost..totally.
i read ur msg over n over again.
i dun understand, as came back to the question i once asked u..
no matter wat, be happy gal.
i want to see u xin fu, healthy.
u once asked me wat was it that make me fell for u
i told feelings, the other half was
u were the only one, tat could cheer me up even whn im sad deep inside.
just by keeping company, ur beautiful smile.
u just make me feel happy somehow.
*takes a deep breath* Love u, serene hong xD
bye...
Date: Sunday, June 19, 2011
Posted at: 1:03 AM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
i wonder alone with a missing heart..
there came back the broken one..
maybe i just been fooling myself all this while..
The Empty Me.
Date: Saturday, June 18, 2011
Posted at: 2:55 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
For a moment, i thought the feeling came..
now im all confused again
Date: Sunday, June 5, 2011
Posted at: 11:31 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Till the day.
You got robbed by the Devil.
Where scars remains.
For the debts of Sins isn't paid.
You got robbed by the Devil.
Where scars remains.
For the debts of Sins isn't paid.
Date: Sunday, May 22, 2011
Posted at: 5:04 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
I dunno if u were happy having me ard,but i was happy have u been there for me.Its just hard to let go of someone i want to hang on to for so long...
even though i have worn out holding on to her..
what was it that others can do, but i cnt do for u..
deep inside my heart's still with u..
i really duno wats going on in my mind..
but take care gal='(
Been missing ur company lately.
i'm still here..if u nid me..
Date: Monday, May 9, 2011
Posted at: 1:45 AM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
thanks you for ur care n corcern for someone who get into so much of trouble ever since primary sch.thanks for ur tolerance for someone who is hot temper, impulsive and nvr put in best effort for studies=/. im really happy to noe tat u really like the drama set, promise u one day i will take photos u will be proud of. Happy Mother Day mum, love you.
peace out.
Date: Saturday, April 30, 2011
Posted at: 7:07 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
one of the multi frames shot that i took..didnt turn out tat well anw, recently getting kindaweird feeling, confused..wondering alone.
and fuck!! blackbird fly still ICU ,life without a camera's company is freaking weird and boring.
Date: Sunday, April 3, 2011
Posted at: 12:43 AM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
心里开心 ， 认为你过得开心 。
心里伤心 ， 你默默地消失。。不找我了。。
心里孤单 ， 少了你的陪伴。。
心里想你 ， 希望一天 ， 你也想起我。
那天突然出现 ， 对不起。。
心里伤心 ， 你默默地消失。。不找我了。。
心里孤单 ， 少了你的陪伴。。
心里想你 ， 希望一天 ， 你也想起我。
那天突然出现 ， 对不起。。
Date: Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Posted at: 4:47 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
i seen to be sleeping my life away esp tis few days...zzZ bad feeling abt tis..sleeping like some coma patient..yawn~
Date: Monday, March 21, 2011
Posted at: 4:36 AM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Lone Tree by maurese.Few hours before i can go to slp=D...recently its been like tis,even since my parents once again repeat their drama..mm..somewhere aft i injured my toe ligament. Nowdays its 5am-3/4pm slp time and 4pm-4am wake time..yea i noe..shld hav been the other way round. However,thats one the ways for me to avoid my family since i can hardly move abt to go out. And damn...money all goes to sensei for treatment..T.T haaiahhsss.....now it became real hard to catch up my fren n bros as well..mostly whn im awake,they would hav gone way far in lala land...haiz.Sometimes,kinda sadded whn facebook posts i was expecting a reply..didnt get through=/ , maybe they are busy ba. hopefully on tues appmt sensei will bandage again...its fucking disgusting.hmm..its 5am..wat beats u hearing ur dad cough such tat he cnt slp...haiz...wat to do wat to do.I'm out~
Date: Friday, March 18, 2011
Posted at: 8:26 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
Sometimes i just hope i was born without a family.Maybe most ppl tinks having a complete family is a real blessing.To a certain extent i agree.However,not all are happy tgt i guess.
Just like mine,having the daily routine of going home,with everyone doing their own stuff.
The only time whn ppl communicate to each other,will be whn quarrel starts.Everyday, same drama keep occur in my hse.I'm really tired of it...a timebomb is just slowing building itself within me.One day if it explodes.I really dunno wat will happen.I'm tired..all drained up.
Date: Monday, February 21, 2011
Posted at: 8:20 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
爸妈离婚吧，放手一博。Date: Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Posted at: 8:49 PM
It end up wit the bits and pieces which reminds me of u always='(
recently,been on a routine kinda lifestyle.everyone seem to be busy wit their own stuff and studies.
as i looked back in life,there maybe still regrets.
as i looked back in life,there maybe still regrets.
however,along the way i found many true friends and bros.
although,i tend to a loner sometimes.
but now i noe that i'm a blessed wit great frens and bros in my life.
hence,i doubt there's much more to regret.
everyone lives once,so i shall live it to the fullest.
thank you again wendy and sammie,
upon recieving i may not noe how to express.
but deep inside,i'm moved to tears=')
with lots of gratitude,
Zi Kai.=)
Zi Kai, 11-12-1992
tohzikai@hotmail.com
I followed my heart,
I see u found happiness
I guess its time
I given it my everything.
Shall i find my her..
in another life
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